do you?

do unto others... but do you believe in angels on earth?  the one's with open hearts & open minds. the ones who are smiling when they should be frowning? is your life so hard that you must degrade to feel personal empowerment. your heart your faith are empowering.. with a sharp tongue and an even sharper blade i say to you - inevitably karma will speak and set her fire ablaze.  one love.

nothing's left - icp (the truth)

theres no story that ain't been told(peace)
there's no gimic that ain't been sold
there's no ocean that never been swam(lets bounce)
there's no jaba that ain't been slammed
there's no road that ain't been traveled(I'm out this bitch)
there's no doctor that ain't been baffled
ain't no thug that never cried
ain't no preacher that never lied
there's no rumor that ain't been passed
ain't no question that no ones asked
there's no tree that won't get chopped
there's no bomb that won't get dropped
ain't no path that no ones laid
ain't no beast that ain't been afraid
there's no feat that no one can
there's no saga that never began
ain't no snow that didn't melt
there's no punch that ain't been felt
there's no skill that no ones learned
there's no planet that he ain't turned
there's no feud that never dissolved
there's no problem that ain't been solved
there's no tale that no ones told
there's no beauty that won't get old
there's no garden the sun ain't beamed on
there's no shoulder that ain't been leaned on
there's no color that ain't been seen
purple,red, yellow,blue, forest green
there's no desert that ain't seen rain
nobody here that ain't felt pain
there's no biggot that ain't been clowned
there's no treasure that I ain't found
ain't no cave they never explored
ain't no mother that ain't been ignored
there's no leader that ain't been led
there's no blood that ain't been shed
there's no dish they never made
ain't no brick they never laid
everything left's been done before
nothings new, nowhere to explore
on the day when the wagons come
i just pray that you let me on

a misunderstanding

i apologize for taking things too personally and often times not thinking about the words spoken before i get overly defensive and say the wrong things.  but this is just how my mind, the twisted unnatural mess that it is, works and relieves itself i suppose.  yep, that's it.. my mind taking a shit -- and it's a natural occurance for me.  so with that being said, along with my apologies and so forth, i hope you can take a moment to understand that it's not my intention to degrade you, hurt you, or make you feel bad -- my intentions are always great.  but shit happens.  especially with me, the girl who's mind can't cut off -- never at ease -- a constant turnover.  believe me, if i could make it stop i would.  i've tried, taken time and spent years trying -- it doesn't work.  it's just me.  love me, hate me, i'm me and i'm glad to be -- my sincerest apologies for thinking you were finally the one who could understand and deal with me.  you probably are, but this time consuming phase is heartbreaking to me.

with certainty

looking from the outside.. i'm just a girl with a smile, a crazy unique style and a special connection to the earth and all of its creatures.  looking from the inside... i'm over sensitive to words, i feel things too thoroughly and too purely, and my mind is a scattered mess.  some things never change.  inevitably though, i'm in love with myself.  and it's the greatest thing in the world.

it's true

i feel you all around me, but my mind is blank.  all i know is that i love you so.. and that everything falls into place  the way that it should.  you amaze me, astound me, take me back to a place where i was happy and loving and carefree, and leave me with an understanding of what life is supposed to be like.  forever grateful to you, my love  my heart my soul.. i look forward to spending the rest of my life showing you my appreciation.  you are amazing in every way & my love is yours (only yours) til my dying day.